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The third iteration of Doug Bolden's various thoughts and musings.

Choices…

modified from Photo by Liosha Shyp on Unsplash

Jason K. Pargin does a daily vlog where he reacts to things, seemingly mostly from reddit, and it can be a fun watch to hear him discuss stuff. A couple of weeks ago he covered one of those classic Engagement Bait Would-You-Rathers:

In case you have no interest in clicking that link or for some reason cannot, the choice is… WOULD YOU RATHER

  • Get $2 million USD (tax free) instantly OR
  • Go back to 10-years-of-age with your current knowledge and have to relive your life?

Pargin argues, as I would almost immediately, that you want to take the money and not look back.

In the comments, though, several people bring up some of the classic reasons why someone might want to live their life again:

…you have nothing you really care to hold on to…

…you lost someone important and want to see them again…

…there’s some deep trauma somewhere…

…you have lost so many important things that re-rolling the dice just makes sense because you might get another shot.

And even reading those I would say that unless you are talking about a single, specific trauma that you could truly impact by redoing something…most of the reasons don’t necessarily strike me as actually compelling.

This is based on a few assumptions by myself:

  1. Since you are retaining all your memories, you are taking the lived trauma with you even if you “fix” it.
  2. There is absolute NO reason to assume everyone around you would make the same choices. In other words, if you assume everyone will be beholden to your will while you fuddle in the wonderland of your own past mistakes, you are being far too self-centered and that’s me being polite.
    • e.g., your ex-wife you want to try again with might not even be there at the same bar and might have hooked up with her high school sweetheart.
    • Even something like your favorite park to stare into the distance as you hate yourself might not be built in this new timeline.
  3. Children, jobs, and everything that requires a monumental amount of chance and random luck to make work well are all just gone as something like a continuation of above but a very important one.
  4. If you have a lifetime of regrets and poor decisions, going back to “fix them” probably won’t work out in your favor any more so than just moving forward. You will still have to endure everything that led to those mistakes in the first place except now you are in the funhouse mirror version of them all.
  5. And…finally, depending on a lot of factors, your life at 10-years-old is a fairly powerless one even with future knowledge.

You know what, no, fuck it. I’ll one up my second point. If you are going back in time and rewriting EVERYONE’S choices just so you can get dumped again for being a selfish bastard, you are a terrible person.

Jerk.

Take the money, shithead.

30 September = Singles Drop Apocalypse, Apparently

Today, 30 September 2026, was for some reason an absolute collision of several singles by bands which I either listen to on the regular or just generally appreciate.

We’ll start with the one mentioned in yesterday’s post, mM7th’s newly rerecorded and released 「エメトワ」 aka «Aime Toi» aka “Love Yourself” [and yes, all that was just so I could use all the different quotation marks]:

It’s a fun video and the re-recording of the song does a lot to help the parts that already shine shine just a bit brighter. Originally the vocal mix felt a bit off compared to their other tracks but now when the Bridge/Chorus hits and eventually band members are chanting “One Day!” it works quite well.

There was also a new song by Pami, “Loser,” which is the video used in the graphic at the top of this page. The lyrics are a bit obvious but the video is anything but. I assume it is a metaphor. For what? Like, look… that feels personal.

It might win for best new video for today which is apparently a stacked category.

THEN, there was Nanajuuhachi’s “Half & Half” which is good song but the video will introduce you to “bedazzled pizza” and I tell you… kids these days, amirite?

I saw that Sezko had a new single coming which turned out to be a whole EP and then a video drop for “Honestly” which means there is only one more song without a video from the EP [which I expect around November(?) when the rest of it hits].

Finally, from today’s drops, alone [but wait, there’s literally more as I found out before I could click submit, see below] we have Froukje’s “Geen Rem” which, if nothing else, can act as a warning as to why you don’t use an eating contest to flirt. Two reasons, really. This is from an album that comes out in about three or four days so look forward to me chatting more about it, then.

NOW, going back just a little bit we have…

  • [one day ago] Lee Emi’s “Destroy Everything” and like I told Kaz having someone sing about the Devil telling them to destroy everything is fun and all but it would be a much worse conversation to have on a bus.
  • [four days ago] Cephalo’s “Bougainvillea” which is a nice song with a video in the always venerable “Blue tinted scene of Japanese woman by body of water” camp and finally, speaking of blue…
  • [five days ago] Mulasaki Ima & muque’s “Blue Cheese” which, and I say this with zero irony, does not actually feature as much blue cheese as it could have featured. Thank you. Might have done me in.

And we had other stuff like Olivia Rodrigo teasing the new Amazon exclusive reimagined-singles album, whoever is running the Oliver Tree account releasing the 3-in-1 “Remarkable Life of Cornelius Cummings” video, AND Mrs. Green Apple promoting their recent entire album.

The last one has a cute little green apple as you hover over the seek bar…

It’s only been one week since the new Brandy Senki song hit. Is this something to do with the new fiscal year? Prices of digital singles going up tomorrow?

No clue, but at least have lots of music to…

…..and, I kid you not, after I started typing this… Harha just released the “Teen Love” video to build up to the release of their first album. Good lord.

This feels like a record.

No pun intended.

Anyhow, I might be get off the internet for a bit before a dozen new tracks get released I get stuck for another few hours.

MM7th’s “Two of a Kind” [MVP #27]

Tomorrow (the exact +/- 24 hours I am not sure, but anywhere from around 6 hours to 26 hours I would guess), mM7th is going to release their 7th single and I have it pre-ordered.

Before it hits, though, let’s go back to their 6th single and jam out to nice city pop with a very slight touch of funk in the bassline with that slap of a voice, “Two of a Kind“:

I’m going to be honest, even knowing what this song is about I am not 100% sure what it is about? Met someone in the ER and then tried to hit it off during a moment of medical distress? Is Flower Shower Girl a person, a song, or the laundry detergent?

Eh, it’s all good. It’s a great single-take [probably with some trickery] video filmed right in a live street with a twee kidnapping plot and some awesome knit headware.

There’s a behind the scenes if you want to watch that, after.

My Music Video Picks [MVP] is a series of posts highlighting various music and dance videos from Youtube. No particular schedule (sometimes lots, sometimes little) though it started as “daily”. It might not even all be music or dance videos. Absolutely picked by me, though. Usually I have to like both the song and the video, but we’ll see.

You can see at least the most recent songs here: [Doug’s] Music Video Picks [Youtube Playlist]. Size of that list will change as the mood strikes. Playlist might contain spoilers for unpublished posts. Just enjoy.

Raising yesterday’s Geo-Pisser…today we get…ALIENS?

I know what you are are thinking about today’s (26 Sep 2026) strange oddity spotted in the Geoguessr Daily Challenge, that strange insect-shaped dark spot is 100% definitely…aliens.

BUT…hear me out. What if instead of aliens, it is the weird floating giant thing from Senritsu Kaiki Film Kowasugi?

At any rate, I’m sure Australia is fine.

Geoguessr and the Pissing Man

I like to play Geoguessr’s Daily Challenge on No Move so I do a lot of panning and zooming and in one location from 23 Sep 2026’s challenge I seem to have panned and zoomed on a man taking a probably well-deserved bio-break (link goes to the initial tilt for the round, look pretty much directly north from there and zoom a bit to see the picture below, or click the picture below to have it done for you, lazy bones…):

The censor bar was not necessary but it made me laugh so neener.

I was initially going to make a Manneken Pis pun but stupid yellow+green censor bar was enough hilarity today.

And just to clarify two points just in case:

  • I am 100% not offended by this and recommend everyone stay hydrated AND micturate regularly. For HEALTH! And SCIENCE!
  • There is a non-zero chance that he is simply pouring something out and/or pulling a gag [said gag possibly being taking the piss].

Brandy Senki’s “Blood♡Sparks” [MVP #26]

Brandy Senki, a frequent feature on the Music Video Picks series, has returned with a new single, “Blood♡Sparks“:

Probably a full contender for2026’s catchiest song about flirtation through vehicular homicide. Let’s see what the last couple of months of the year might bring, though.

Really enjoy the aesthetic of the video and the song is a perfect continuation of the Brandy Senki style.

The one “downside” is that I have spent too long watching Backroooms/etc- style lore and hidden secrets videos this past couple of weeks so I found myself scanning all the various posters and pictures in the background to see if there were any hidden messages.

From around 1:29

Are those two maps down below? 7pm? Wednesday or October 24? What could it all mean!? [Doug’s Note: They do have a concert on 24 Oct coming up and nothing scheduled for Wednesday, 21 Oct…wink…]

Also, HUGE CAVEAT, I don’t care how cute they are…if the cute person asks you to run over somebody: deny absolutely everything. Even if they promise kissy time.

For real for real…

Good luck, Space Pilgrims.

EDIT: Oh, almost forgot. For some reason the song has two versions on iTunes with one marked “Explicit” and the other not. I got the uncensored version but I’m not sure what the difference is [if any]. Might take a day or two for it to filter up [no pun intended].


My Music Video Picks [MVP] is a series of posts highlighting various music and dance videos from Youtube. No particular schedule (sometimes lots, sometimes little) though it started as “daily”. It might not even all be music or dance videos. Absolutely picked by me, though. Usually I have to like both the song and the video, but we’ll see.

You can see at least the most recent songs here: [Doug’s] Music Video Picks [Youtube Playlist]. Size of that list will change as the mood strikes. Playlist might contain spoilers for unpublished posts. Just enjoy.

Withdrawing even further from crowdfunding… aka, thanks for the marketing stunt

Current musical mood: Syayos’s Anthem 1.1.

from photo by Madeline Liu on Unsplash

Last November, on my RPG/Solo-play blog, I posted about setting limits on my crowdfunding this year. I simultaneously spent too much on campaigns but also kind of hit the goal (backed fewer, paid more for the ones I did back). A partial success, in other words.

A few brought instant joy and have maintained that energy.

A few others: exact opposite.

Most campaigns I backed had very mixed results as to their delivery this year. Some of it was very much on them. Some of it was on the vast ocean of international shipping changes and charges (and the double whammy of changes to charges).

Some of it was obvious business strategies to treat Kickstarter and Backerkit as a lower responsibility store front to keep pushing hype.

The long and short of it can be summed up as:

  • I don’t need your extra crap designed to trigger FOMO
  • It is generally cheaper for me to buy it at full retail through a shipper who can handle international shipping

This past June had me me paying €30 in customs fees for a £12 deck of cards. Not like a fancy deck of cards with handwritten unique and bespoke fonts. Just…a deck of cards with some branding. Kind of stuff you’d expect to be for a tenner.

I had one book show up and thanks to the jackasses handling shipping (€40 I spent on it, including fees being supposedly pre-paid) writing it out as a “gift” worth only $0.01 I had to pay an additional €40. That’s €80 extra for a €40 book.

It sours things.

Many of the small projects I like to back are frankly economically untenable for me to get any physical tier in their current forms. Some creators are leaning hard on POD and I like that when I can print it either in country or through companies who will take the fees up front so I don’t have to pay extra fees later.

Shipping can still be steep, and quality takes a hit, but it’s doable.

There are also plenty of upper/mid-tier projects. Those can be nice because I know the product will be good, the shipping will be handled, the add-ons will be of quality….and I can buy everything I want from those campaigns from a store without going through crowdfunding tomfoolery. It’s ironic that those are the best ones to back for customer satisfaction.

Which brings me to a third bullet point which I held back, and it’s the most damning one for my own continued participation:

  • It is obvious that crowdfunding as a whole no longer aligns with my personal philosophy of what it means

This morning I got recommended a Youtube video with a name not quite but essentially: “Our Dream Is Dead.” I absolutely refuse to share any part of it [besides one graphic at the top of this post] but picture something like below for a thumbnail only he made himself up to look a bit like a clown (?) and slapped the word FAIL on it and you will get the point:

Over the video he goes on to explain a lot of things, mostly about how he is a great marketer for crowdfunding and how much he understands how to game Kickstarters and how, despite this, how much this dream campaign ultimately failed.

Dead, Space Pilgrims, dead in the water.

Screenshots of conversions and the lack thereof. Actively mentioning board game content creators for not being good marketing. Talking about Substacks and how to build marketing lists and, this cannot be stressed enough, how the man talking about a “failed” Kickstarter campaign knows how to market Kickstarter campaigns. All the while showing quality, PR-team-approved shots of the game in question.

wink, Space Pilgrims, wink

If you haven’t guessed the twist: the Kickstarter has actually fully funded within days of launching and still has 20+ days to go.

The video is marketing. How much is debatable. I feel like a lot but (see edit below) the creators are saying it was mostly accidental. There feels like some cynicism, here. It was not a “Day 3 and we are 70% there!” but “Day 3 and our studio is doomed.”

Marketing released before the campaign had succeeded but shown to me and many others after. Turning Kickstarter into GoFundMe but the thing on life support is the dream.

People trying to point this out in the comments are either being ignored or, in one case, having it explained to them how if a Kickstarter doesn’t fund in the first 24 hours it is a failure.

No matter how cynical this is, though, versus how honest: it really demonstrates how crowdfunding has long been digested and eaten by the exact same language it was meant to fix.

Pitting content creators against content enjoyers.

Thank you for helping to make it really clear to me how much I don’t care about participating in the guilting-customers into liking, sharing, subscribing, backing, and buying game.

Parasocial bullshit is destroying content creation more and more everyday.

To the rest of you, with only a couple of exceptions, I’ll see your stuff after it gets released and people come up with reviews that you didn’t pay them to write.

I hope it makes it. I truly do. I’m sure there is an audience out there somewhere for it.

Now I’m wondering how long until someone Kickstarts a campaign to market Kickstarter campaigns. Probably been done, hasn’t it?

EDIT/ADDITIONAL

Around the same time I was typing up my post someone else was calling them out for the “stunt” and the creator feedback actually makes the core issue sound much worse:

Third, we do not think we set [a dishonest] target; we set the minimum funding goal, which, of course, was expected to be surpassed quickly. If “funding goal” were the final objective for campaigns on Kickstarter these days, the campaigns would end once they reached it. But the algorithm here rewards those who raise 1000% of their minimum funding goal, ranking them higher. That explains why almost every campaign (regardless of their status and size) sets goals like this. Even in your list of backed projects, we can see many examples like these. They just succeeded in raising these “1000%,” so it is not presented to them as a sin. At least, we see it this way.

Even if this takes some disdain off the eyes of the creators, it just shows that this style of crowdfunding is a dead endeavor. Because people backing a project but not getting what they backed because the costs weren’t covered?

That’s a terrible practice.

I’m not giving the people who made the video a complete pass, though. I saw the video.

NYTimes’ Connections’ “hidden” community

Current musical mood: Cephalo.

Sharing my own results today rather than a screenshot of anyone else’s material but in doing so realized I hit 777 Connections with a 44 streak and that seems fun.

I’ve thought about commenting on this topic for a while and today feels like as good as any for it but one of the fascinating things I have found as a longish-term player of NYTimes’ Connections puzzle is that there is a long-running community “hidden” in the comments section. A comment section I doubt many even really see.

Obviously, it’s not really hidden or I wouldn’t say jack about it. It’s just a group of folks who mostly share feedback on puzzles and the art given in the hints section but every once in a while it bubbles up into something interesting and unique.

Today is 11 September so quite a few of the posts are talking about 2001. In the past, though, I have seen a college student calling out for help due to homesickness and depression — with older folks giving actually helpful advice — and I have seen people talking news good and bad. There are some people who post stuff pretty much every day or weekly. Very nearly a blog with fans who follow and comment along.

Today I scrolled down and found there’s someone doing a kind of music puzzler thing with folks playing along. In a place “meant” to talk about solving a specific puzzle for a specific day.

It’s fascinating. And it takes me back to a period of time before we were all shunted into the Mass Approved Social Network Places™ and phrases like “subreddit” and “Facebook Community” became algorithmically controlled and billionaire spawning short-hand substitutes for events which have been happening since prior to the broad-release of the World Wide Web.

Back when you might hang out on an author’s website, a product forum, or a city page a few dozen people were active. Usenet groups, IRC channels, and mailing lists about all sorts of topics. Local BBSes about a music scene. The varieties were endless.

Never really private — though sometimes a bit invite-only (I was in some 90s RPG writer groups more locked down) — and how toxic vs nice they were was entirely down to whatever handful of members settled first. With plenty of members who hated the off-topic chatter while the boring silence without it was deafening.

These little fragile bespoke communities under constant assault from spambots, in-fighting, and the eventual heat-death of their tiny universe when whatever admin running it retired or had to retire the software due to security issues.

In that in-between living like dandelions growing out of sidewalk cracks: all down to the auspices of wind and rain.

Subreddits and Discord Servers try to emulate this but are something else. Built to allow it rather than simply watching it grow. With mods and multiple bullet-point lists for rules.

Flowers planted in a field rather than finding purchase in an empty lot.

Today’s Conspiracy Theory: Election Years and “New Maps”

I’m going to not wade into the fact that you are almost definitely hearing about post-partum depression a lot because it is a mid-term election year in the United States (though you most likely are). In 2024, there was a certain track meet. 2020 I don’t even have to talk about.

Let’s just say certain patterns persist.

The less emotionally draining side of this same conspiratorial coin — though frustrations do run deep — is people trying their absolutely hardest to Both Sides™ the UN’s adoption of Equal Earth Projection maps.

Just today, this post popped up like so many others on Reddit as of late…

Obviously, I highlighted the text to bend it to my argument but the fact that the poster [whose name I kept in if you want to look some of their stuff, which does include some quite interesting map discussions besides this] felt to describe this in terms of victimhood just shows how people are baking the argument into the pretense of a statement. Begging the question or some such legal term. The mind boggles. Et cetera.

“Biggest victims…” Lord save us from Redditors. Could have just said something like “have the largest distortions in Atlantic centric versions of the maps” or whatever.

I legit feel that certain algorithmic forces are trying to poke this bear and ride the US-defaultism nature of sites like Reddit, Youtube, Facebook, etc to try and convince you that you should feel victimized by a map. Maybe I am just really unlucky. Who knows.

OP is also just wrong. Here’s what the above would look like if they had used the Pacific centered version of the map (which honestly gets more landmasses right so I don’t mind it, even as an Euro-located person, sorry Greenland/Iceland).

Heck, several places already use projections that are closer to to Equal Earth than Mercator. Go look at stuff like Winkel Tripel and Robinson Projections.

Good for all the people learning this past week that not everyone uses the same Atlantic-centered Mercator map (even if they end up preferring what they know). It is a nice moment to find out how other people do such things.

For the record, my favorite is probably something like Dymaxion or Hao’s Projection. Pole focused maps make the various landmasses much more interesting to me.

Also, we are now in the era where digital maps and the ability to have multiple projections at once makes this very, very moot. Different maps for different tasks.

Day in the Life #17996: Rainy & Sick in Grimbergen + Belated Return to School Days

Today has been kind of sunny, here, but that’s a change.

The past couple of weeks have been quite rainy and gray in Grimbergen. Considering how drought-tastic July and August were, having it swing colder and wetter has been nice.

You just have to brace for the mostly unbroken gray and the scent of rain covering everything. Even when the sun managed to peak out from behind the clouds, it was through rain-drenched windows and drowning in the mud.

This is assuming it was not an outright downpour:

We had those, too.

The grass, though, the grass has grown quite green. That’s nice.

Unfortunately, we have also had quite a few sick days in the same time. Kaz got hit around 10-11 days ago. I had milder symptoms show up around a day later. Then B got sick a couple of days into it. This virus, Space Pilgrims, it persists…

B was supposed to start back to school this week but after one-and-half days had her throat swell up and become quite painful and her fever from last weekend returned. So we ended up keeping her out the next two days of school so she can heal up.

I did manage to get this quick photo of her making friends with a moth on her half day. I’ll take that as a good omen despite the illness. Note that there was actual sun at the time but I think it was raining by the time we got her home.

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