Dickens of a Blog

The third iteration of Doug Bolden's various thoughts and musings.

It’s Helpful When They Tell How Much They *Need* You

Remember when Snopes would dig up “No, Facebook ain’t going to charge you, silly!” debunks every few years? Presumably to fish ad clicks from that elderly aunt scared she’s going to lose access to her favorite local knitting group.

What Snopes failed to disclose, there, is that the call was coming from inside the house.

The new proposal would offer European users two choices: continue using free versions of Instagram and Facebook with personalized ads, or pay for ad-free subscriptions. The changes would not affect Meta app users in other countries, including the U.S. 

Now, you could argue — if you are a sycophant who thinks giving billionaires your personal data is a fair deal just so you can continue to doom-scroll instead of taking up useful hobbies and getting more sleep — that giving up personal data for “advertisements” is easy. And free.

And you might say even, “Sure, they will sell it to law enforcement to carry out mass surveillance on an unprecedented scale, but the doom-scrolling, Doug. You want me to just like…live with myself?”

But in their desperate push to devour more data to justify eco-crashing data centers being fast-tracked around the world, Meta has starting telling the same content creators that justify the existence of their entire site that…well…

Got to love it when Meta tells its users that their data is worth €5.99 – €7.99 [I’ve seen two different values, quoted] per month. That much, huh?

Sounds like a great backbone for a really big lawsuit to recoup all the stolen value from content creator’s hard work currently being funneled into AI-training machines.

No would be my short answer…

from Do customers want AI on their e-readers? [LGT: GoodEReader]:

The use cases stated in the press release were AI features such as translation, transcription, and document summaries. However, this would just be the start; AI is coming for your e-readers whether you like it or not.

I think Michael Kozlowski’s line there at the end is perhaps the only truly pertinent one in the whole article, seeing how the AI space is growing so fast that a) hardware with AI “baked in” will be out of date on a much faster time-line that most e-ink/e-reader devices so these first sacrificial lambs will be in trash heaps within a year and b) the entire AI space is populated by a entire tessellation of pyramid schemes where certain people, once they achieve enough riches, might slow down enough to try and address the growing body of problems.

Since “when a rich asshole has enough money” is slightly less probable than “when pigs fly” or hell freezing over1, my personal assumption that generative AI will largely be fixed post some world-rending crash.

For now, the absolutely non-sense trillion-dollar valuations and projected growth worth more than most countries basically only works if folks keep rapidly adopting it. In a similar vein to how little people like myself (and yourself) were pulled into the stock market by sheer shitloads of late-90s, early-00s propaganda and now that action has propelled a few people into the spheres of worth where no international law seems to actually apply and every attempt to rein in said wealth leads to the billionaire equivalent of hissy-fits.

We have to feed at the Trough™ and…oh, look, just got another email saying my monthly Trough™ fee has been increased to €49.95 unless I allow advertisements on my Trough™ device.

Fucking wank.

The thing is I actually like the potential of the services this could offer. Things like being able to compare the linguistic choices between books, to see references to other books in a series (without wading to middling fan-wikis full of malware ads), get multiple translations, to look up historical events being referenced, to do deeper searches about concepts being discussed, to analyze charts and numbers, to check the veracity of claims… These could be good things.

But for now the folks who want you to want AI are not your friends.

You are the customer and the product. At the same goddamned time.

  1. And far more probable than the bullshit claims that “eye of a camel” was really a secret code that means rich people are actually very, very loved by God. ↩︎

A Day in the Life #17903: Exams, Gamera, and Lunch

I like how when you look at my lunch from today, it looks like the kind of food you’d see in a prison film or otherwise a movie meant to suggest the person is being punished for eating. It was good, mind. Peanut butter and jelly sandwich with orange slices and a spotty banana. I liked it, it just doesn’t quite sell itself.

Last night, we had our first exam for our Nederlands Cursus. The oral portion. We had done the writing [fine], reading [mostly fine], and listening [somewhat fine] portions prior to the class. The reading had one portion that felt like it was suddenly quite advanced but I made it work. The listening had a limit to the number of times you could play the file (3) and I found this out after playing one of the clips twice to just the cadence of the speaker down. Added some spice.

The oral portion was probably the most stressed I have been while taking a test in a good minute, though.

It ended up going fairly well but when answering the question “Waar woon jij?” I had a strange blank and started to talk about living in Huntsville, Alabama. I mean, it was in language. That might count as my first senior moment.

Second glitch was when trying to figure out how to ask Kaz if they liked swimming (“Zwem jij graag?”) and my brain kept trying to force the “graag” to the front (“Graag zwem jij?”). I just couldn’t unlock it for a half second. The teacher fussed as I tried glancing through my notes but my brain unlocked after a second.

It is a weird sensation to be on the other side of the teaching process, but always good for long-time academics like me to have that pain, I suppose.

After our class, I got a package that had the two Arrow box-sets for Gamera (Showa and Heisei). I’m in the camp that feels like Heisei Gamera is just about absolute peak tokusatsu. We watched Gamera 2: Attack of Legion and I had a grand old time. One of my favorite movies of all time, and high up on the kaiju flick rating for me. I appreciate that Gamera 3 is overall a more interesting movie but what makes it interesting somewhat requires the other two moves of the box-set.

I do have the even bigger all-Gamera, all-the-time boxset from Arrow but it’s one of those encyclopedia sized numbers that makes it kind of hard to get the movies out without lots of faith. Having the individually boxed blu-rays is nice in that regard.

As a final note, had a strange dream last night. The bits I remember, I mean. The dream was third person (not involving me) and was something like a very-extended movie trailer. A group of friends doing stupid stuff.

At the very end, four of the friends are in a truck — it was a kind of smaller truck, but somehow one of the friends was sitting on the dashboard looking backwards, dream-logic — and one of the friends start talking about wanting to die and how he hopes it hurt. He then pulls out some sort of explosive device and starts playing with it and it starts counting down.

The guy on the dashboard reaches over and grabs his hand and the two (out of four) are waiting for death together. It had the vibe of a nightmare though the scene was ridiculously “shot” like some 90s movie.

Right as I was waking up, the dream had the device fly out of the truck and go across a field and blow up harmlessly…maybe. It was an odd experience like I was recalling something I had seen but it did not quite happen. Like my brain had scripted out more of a dream and then wanted to try and get to a good stopping spot.

Rereading Books

2026 has become a bit of a year for rereading books for me. Not intentionally. Not exclusively. However, a few things happened which have each driven me towards reading stuff I have already read.

Koji Suzuki’s passing was part of it. In honor of the recently late author, I did a deep dive reading of his short story collection Dark Water (note: there will be spoilers, but I had fun writing that). Since then I started rereading his Ring series.

I got the manga adaptation of Yukito Ayatsuji’s Decagon House Murders and read it all in an extended sitting. While not a perfect re-read, it still follows the story relatively precisely enough it felt like it.

There the whole to-do with watching Albert Campion: Sweet Danger and then exploring the oddities of the available Campion ebooks. I went back and read Sweet Danger at that time.

I had a sudden inkling to go back and try and recall my fandom of Christopher Moore which lead to rereading Practical Demonkeeping and Island of the Sequined Love Nun [while I enjoyed both ok, especially the former, it seems like I might not have become such a fan if I read him the first time this year].

I have even gone back and relistened to the audiobooks of the first three Dungeon Crawler Books after only reading those earlier this year.

And currently I am going back through Phil Rickman’s Curfew which may have been my first book read from him (I don’t remember) and enjoying myself. Before that, I reread the very short first book in the Cherringham series before starting to go back through that series.

All told, it is already around 1/3 of my total reading of the year and there are others I would like to revisit. Good Omens, perhaps. Darkest Part of the Woods. Maybe some Philip K. Dick. Could be fun to go back through some manga.

Some of it is because I had such a long stretch, nearly a decade, of being distanced from my reading life. Getting back into reading is very nice but there’s a sense of being dislocated a bit and using a few key works are helping to me realign.

I’ve been wondering what other people think about rereading. Seems like it once had to be the default. A personal library the size of my own is a rarity and even then if I stopped adding new books and just read what I had for the rest of my life I’d have to no doubt reread several volumes a few times to fill the gaps. Historically, the situation would have been tighter. Even with access to a public library, people would no doubt have had to reread books a few times unless they were in a particularly large city with lots of access to new texts.

Plus, it’s fun. Even tossing out Nabokov’s “no reading, only rereading” quote it is kind of nice how a well-known book is a map of an explored trail. First time through, you are probably looking down for loose rocks and looking around for trail markings. As you walk a trail again and again, you get to a point where you can feel the differences in the seasons. You can recall how the stream is full one year but empty the next. It might not hold the shock of truly new discovery but it holds something different: subtle discovery. If, and this is important, if it is a good trail to walk.

Which, I suppose, is exactly what Nabokov was on about.

I tried to look up some information about folks and attitudes on rereading, including a dive into more academic literature, and there are some nuggets there though the more academic side made me roll my eyes a good bit because it felt like some authors couldn’t be bothered to reread their own tedious papers. Stuff I saw had some folks talking about the importance of rereading. About the enjoyment. Revisiting old favorites like old friends. Some folks having a yearly re-read plan: especially certain big books of their youth. People talking about finding out new things each time.

One person even argued the Philosophy 101 argument that rereading is impossible because each time you read a book, you find something new. I…kind of like that.

Reading a book is an event where the author (and editor, and publisher, and typesetter, and all of them) meet the reader at a particular place in their lives. A two-body system where each body is part of the whole.

A person bitter over a divorce will read a book differently than a person newly married. Particular jobs and particular children and particular whatevers can all flavor reactions to plot points and characters. Just age. All that. Unless you live a fairly monotonous life, chances are you will have new eyes when you look at old pages.

Don’t get me wrong, though, the statement is academic twaddle. There is 100% a thing as re-reading. Calm down Heraclitus. It’s the same damned river. It’s just a different version of it.1

Around my bookstore days, 2007ish, at the early shouts of the Social Media Revolution [more like de-evolution, amirite!? wink wink…etc], whenever people complained to me about rereading it was always in a broader context of detesting spoilers. Not sure what was up back then, but folks had a thing about spoilers for sure.

Now reading through some of those posts about why people don’t reread, it seems to be largely in the context of “there’s so much to read” with a minor addendum of “I don’t read much to begin with” in a few spots.

One bookblogger I found says that there is a pressure to always be reading something new because of the public nature of their reading habits. I think that tracks a bit, but is also a bit sad. What is essentially the public face of reading in the post-apocalyptic wasteland aftermath of the aforementioned Social Media Revolution is required by nature of their existence to always be caught up in the new thing. Sure, stuff like Cormac McCarthy’s Blood Meridian and Mark Danielewski’s House of Leaves will be rediscovered every few months by someone who seems to try and claim a special ownership of it but overall The New™ drives content. A second two-body system in our existing two-body system. The Reader + The Author entwined with the The Reader’s Public Persona + The Reader’s Public Persona’s Audience.

Some of it is faff, of course. Another chunk of twaddle. There are too many books for you to read. Yes, you. I’m talking to you. At best we can merely find the books that we find. Lady Luck is another body in our ever-growing complexity of orbits.

None of this is to yuck anyone’s yum. Read. Don’t read. Reread. Just buy books to put on a shelf so guests can feel amazed. Whichever meets you where you are.

The you that was here five seconds ago.

Now gone.

And another…

  1. “I never make love to the same woman twice, my wife is always surprising me.” It’s good for chatting to your friends but the fact that the universe is constantly being rewritten doesn’t stop it from being the same universe. Remember, Space Pilgrims, everything and nothing at the same time. Which is no time at all. ↩︎

Got to love it when they make it easy: Reddit’s App Push

Over the past month or so, Reddit has been “trying out” a push for mobile users to pick up the app:

And like…sure. Fine. Whatever. You have to love it when they make it easy to leave.

It’s helpful for Reddit to be so accommodating. Since I got that alert a couple of weeks ago, it has been very easy to not spend time just chunking through bot-driven doomscrolling where most of the good content is just reposts from years ago. The amount of books and long-form media I’ve been able to consume with the freed up time is not inconsequential.

There’s a longer rant, here, but I’ll just give a short taste.

It is absolutely criminal that “new media” has actively colluded into a universal state where websites, apps, and other services assume that the wholesale relinquishing of our personal data is a ready expectation for which we should thank them. Even apps/sites/services for which we pay money, sometimes a lot of money. Doesn’t matter. “Add more friends to make it more fun!” “Make sure your location tracking is on and we’ll give you five free gems!”

All the behavioral scientists and marketers pushing this should be outright ashamed.

AND, it should be illegal for those profiting off this new cold war to not have to give at least 80% of all user-stolen revenue back to the users. Either its worth something or it isn’t. “If you are not paying for it, you are not the customer,” bullshit has forgiven grave sins against privacy and helped pave the backbone of ecological collapse and city-sized datacenters paid for with our tax money.

Who gives a shit about Reddit’s claims that this is for the user experience? Of course it isn’t. At least not outside of addiction driven tribal-brain behavior and bright lights and stupid meme videos. The last time Reddit had a good user experience was back when it was a terrible website full of terrible people around whom you shouldn’t be. At least then it felt like a reflection of its actual target audience.

Hell, I’m not even blocking ads on the site so it’s not even about recouping lost ad revenue, at least not the direct ad revenue.

It’s so they can get more data from our phones and sell more information about their user. Because the entire economy is being entangled into datamining and AI training and selling user data to data brokerages who then sell it to dataminers, AI trainers, and law enforcement.

Up my butt, Reddit. Up. my. butt.

Embarking on a mild (semi-)elimination era…

Doesn’t really have anything to do with the post but Unsplash has been recommending me these abstract-ish green renders of vaguely scientific shape and I liked it. It’s a render from TSD Studio via Unsplash+.

Around two weeks ago (?), roughly corresponding to a period where I was having a lot of difficulty moving due to severe pains in my right leg, I started getting moderately severe gastrointestinal issues. I won’t go into all the nitty-gritty but sharp cramps, heartburn, constipation, and such severe bloating that it looked I had regained around 20kg were becoming something like daily symptoms. Oddly, and this might be useful later if this turns out to be a more serious issue, the bloating seems more prominent on the left-hand side.

Since my 2022 accident, it is not uncommon for there to be differences between my right- and left-hand sides of my body. It is clear that I walk, and perhaps even sit and sleep, with more stress on one side than the other. This is probably a big part of why my right leg has been giving me so much trouble this past six-months.

However, the sharp cramps and pains have gone on long enough that I have been trying to tweak a few things to test and with some gentle amounts of Miralax and a few other things was able to temper some symptoms, though last night they returned back with a vengeance. I felt simultaneously like I was hungry (an impossibility) and was also so full I was injuring myself (not necessarily an impossibility, but since I had eaten only a single serving of pasta with a correct amount of sauce and half-an-avocado, not very likely).

Last night I figured it might be best to make a cluster of changes to see if any of those help and if it does, then perhaps walk back one at a time until I had an idea of what might be going wrong. Note: the feelings are not really like when I have dairy exposure. That has its own flair of horribleness. I do not suspect an allergic reaction. It is more than I feel like something is triggering, especially late afternoon and early night, very severe inflammation that is strong enough it is interfering with bodily functions.

The changes are…

  • Smaller portions per meal with more meals, replicating my Wegovy diet [the symptoms are not unlike what would happen if I over indulged while on Wegovy].
    • Pre-cutting the food.
    • Making sure I chew slower.
  • No added sugar, though *some* sweets are ok (none sour, though).
  • Very little added salt, but none if the item already has “plenty” of salt.
  • Reduction of stuff with added-acidity.
    • Including knocking out a bottled green tea I’ve been drinking). It has artificial sweeteners so I’ll add “no added artificial sweeteners.”
  • Stop taking a small aspirin I have been taking in the morning to counteract what I will call, very scientifically and medically accurately, “my thick-ass blood.”
  • Trying to keep my hydration more balanced and room temperature.

The idea is to give this around a week or so. If the symptoms persist, I am going to try removing other stuff but unfortunately the other stuff tends to be outright staples. That’s getting more into food allergy territory and so I will likely try and consult someone.

Also, I am keeping an eye on the left/right divide. If someone continues to bloat more than others…yeah, likely going to see a professional. Or, you know, ask ChatGPT. Whichever comes first.

A nice trip down memory lane, Google says…

I’ve been using Google Photos for a LONG time now, probably too long, because it has all the ammo in the world to incriminate me. Which it does on a regular basis through its various “take a look at these wondrous photos of yesteryear, kind sir!”

And yesterday’s “3 Years Ago” was headlined by this absolute beauty:

First off, how dare you?

Second, just in case there is some confusion, this is from some Swedish movie, likely horror. “The End.” Pronounced “sloot” (or, for the Dutchies, “sloet”).

My all time favorite of this comes from the last moments of The Phantom Carriage. While it wouldn’t have been my first time experiencing it, it was probably the first time where my brain semi-broke while it happened.

Oeps! De afvoer is ontploft!

This past weekend, a pretty notable stormfront moved through and not only dropped a good amount of rain, but also did weird stuff to the pressure.

Somewhere in there, plus an undiscovered bit of blockage in our outgoing pipes (presumably), the extra water + “wax-sealed bottle” effect + pressure ups-and-downs resulted in several liters of rancid water burping back into our garage.

To quote my description shared with a friend at the time:

I could tell you what it smelled like, but you’d never eat Taco Bell again.

It was rank and it covered most everything in the garage.

Kaz took charge and got a lot of stuff cleaned and since then I’ve done spot disinfecting as I locate a place that obvious needs it and, frankly, it all needs it. Spiritual taint abounds.

We called a professional who came out and got the pipes cleaned out and washed back out the sediment and such that had been shoved forcibly into our system.

Now I’m washing dishes with a sense of dread. Just waiting to hear The Burp again.

Last Week’s Top 10 (a slight test)

I’m not 100% sure I can make sense of a regular “Last Week’s Top 10” because (a) I listen to a lot of [self-curated] playlists and (b) I listen to large swaths of background music. In both cases, just letting the PLEX Algorithm Gods take the wheel. There have been a few peak songs this past week, though, so this is one of the cases where it might work.

Going to start a record and see if there’s anything interesting to note in a week or two.

The Top 10 last week (27 April to 03 May, 2026)

  1. Yorushika – Bubbles
  2. tuki. – Zero
  3. tuki. – Bansanka
  4. majiko – Kurai Kurai
  5. Yorushika – Amy
  6. Yorushika – In May, From the Emerald Green Window
  7. krage – Request
  8. Sawano Hiroyuki (feat Tomorrow x Together) – LEvel
  9. Bear McCreary (feat Serj Tankian) – Godzilla
  10. veno – Becoming

Overall Analysis and Comments

There is only a slight surprise, here, which I will discuss.

March and April have largely been the “Months of Yorushika” for me — second person has topped monthly plays for both March 2026 and April 2026 by a margin — and their new single, “Bubbles,” is backed by a fun music video.

Likewise, tuki. — a fairly new artist to me — was first picked up pretty hard by a clever video for “Zero” which plays a singer revealing their face.

As for majiko’s “Kurai Kurai,” the video is quite fun but the song continues just to show up near the top top since it was released.

The surprise, though, is that Ado’s “Kira” isn’t on the list. In this case, it might because I’ve mostly listened to it via the music video, but it feels like it should show up.

Oh, speaking of surprises, there was definitely a fair amount of listening to Oliver Tree’s new album. And I would have guessed Brandy Senki’s “End of the F***ing World” would have been there since that’s cropped up multiple times in the playlists.

I’m also not 100% sure what counts as a play, here. I feel like I’ve listened to several of those songs more than given. Anyhow, I’ll keep tracking it as it goes and it seems interesting I’ll keep doing it.

2026 so far…

Lots of Yorushika and with majiko up top. I guess the main two that have “dropped” off in the past couple of weeks are Pami’s “Candydate” and Zico’s “Duet” with Lilas. A couple of weeks ago also had a fairly heavy Gorillaz rotation which has slowed.

This One Thing about BookTube Drives Me Mad…Click for…blah blah blah…

Ok, that’s a lie. A lot of things about “BookTube” drive me a bit mad. Most of it, really. There is good stuff, real good stuff, but I rarely care to watch enough to find the good stuff.

I’ll be in a mood to discuss more later, maybe, but here’s something from dozens of thumbnails that is now irritating me enough I’m going to start telling Youtube to not recommend me channels which use it:

Books {held | stacked | pointed to} spine back while a thoughtful face is front and center and there’s a title like…

Five Books I Will Never Read Again Because They Are TOO Good

or

Three Books You Have Never Read but Should Get Right Now

or

These Books Absolutely Wrecked My Summer

The last one probably with fake tears added to the thumbnail, or some such.

And it is so annoying to be so constantly baited into every video where even if you know the BookTuber or subscribe or whatever you still have to essentially pretend to be tricked into watching it.

The new The Algorithm demands sacrifice. Tricks for Clicks! If you know what are you getting into, you might not waste so much time forming addiction to screens, amirite?! It’s that or absolutely low-tier enragement farming.

Look, we’re adults, here. Just show the books. Let me know.

If I have not read the books, then good! New stuff!

If I have read the books and hate them, then good, I can avoid it (or join in to see a difference in opinion).

If I have read the books and love them, then I can either avoid or watch to have my sense of utter-correctness validated. Win win!

Mostly, I suspect, the middle-of-the-road absolutely un-timeless, un-classics which proliferate across BookTube’s for-all-tastes vibe will bear little interest for me and that’s ok. I’m not here to yuck your yum, not really. I love that you love to read.

Let me choose to click or not.

Otherwise, I’m no longer clicking a goddamned thing. Well, except the hide channel and such.

I’m sorry the soul-sucking, orphan-crushing machine to which your livelihood is attached requires you to screech like performing monkeys and trick your audience to make it happy.

OH, here are the books, by the way. Lest hypocritical be I:

There’s no real reason for those three. They were just near my desk and I didn’t feel like spending longer taking the photo than typing the rant.

All three: recommended, if you are into that sort of thing.

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